It feels about one hundred years since this photo was taken. I can scarcely remember life before my children. I remember it was a lot of fun; I do remember that! The second I was handed my first baby boy, the entire universe shifted and I was forever and irrevocably changed. No one told me that after you have a baby, you never have a worry-free day again. And no one told me that I would feel love, joy, tenderness, attachment, and protectiveness beyond anything I could ever imagine. And lots of people told me it goes too fast. I didn't believe it. When you are dealing with diapers and tantrums and sleepless nights, it doesn't seem to go quite fast enough. But it does indeed go ridiculously fast. And now here I am, eagerly checking the mail each day for letters from colleges for my boy. Curious about where my son will live without me for the very first time. Excited for my monkey yet dreading the day I leave him in a distant city with his toothbrush and laptop to make his own life. It is no small thing. I suspect that when that day comes, my universe will shift yet again.
"Making the decision to have a child - it's momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body."
~ Elizabeth Stone
Posted by: Marta | Friday, March 21, 2008 at 10:44 AM